Till I Get Over You

Till I Get Over You

Everytime I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do, oh

Tears began to tumble down my cheeks, but I allow them to fall. It's okay to cry. No one will ever see me and I prefer it to stay that way. I am all alone in my bedroom. School is out for the summer. Next term will come and I would have to see him again. I gaze outside my window and see the golden sun shining and the soft blue pastel- colored sky. It's such a pretty day, but why do I have to feel so sad?

You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice

I never felt this way before. I hate it! It hurts so much deep inside. I can't go on like this. He told me he liked me, he told me he cared. He's not lying, really. He's just scared. He won't swallow up his pride and let himself love. He never loved anyone, except of course his father and mother, and he doesn't want to love anyone else. He doesn't want to have "muggle feelings" as he would say. I think to myself, But I have those feelings. You may be able to control anything you want, but you can't control your feelings. It's like it has a mind of it's own. Whoever thought "muggle feelings" was so powerful. Ouch. My eyes are beginning to sore.

(Chaque fols que tu ton va)
You just bring me down
(Je pretend que tu fais bein)
So I'm counting my tears 'til I get over you

I wonder how Draco can act so normal around me. I mean, we finally confessed that we like each other. I'm too afraid to talk to him about it. I just don't want to bug him. I can only guess that he is trying to act normal and to forget those feelings he has for me. I must do the same. If he doesn't want to love me, then I must stop these feelings I have for him. I see him smile and I smile too. I'm crying inside though. You ask why won't he let himself love? It's because he believes Slytherins are not meant to have such foolish feelings of love. Love is only for Gryffindors. I asked him what about our parents. Aren't they in love? He told me that they weren't in love, they're just associates for life. A spouse was a companion to be with forever and someone to bear offspring with, but not to love.

Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like
To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never tried
We both know we can't change it
But we both know we'll just have to face it

I know Draco still likes me. He's just trying to stop. According to him, falling in love is waste of feelings. We did talk about all this before, but I have more to ask. Sadly, I can't ask anymore. It will just make me fall for him even more and make him angry. You know how easily annoyed he can get. If only I can stop liking him, before this turns into love. As you know, that would make things harder. I have to stop because I feel so helpless and torn. If only I can give him up.

If only I could give you up
But would I want to let you off of this soapbox baby?
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice

Don't get me wrong. I want to love. I think it's beautiful thing. Not all Slytherins are alike. Though, we all have powerful ambitions. They're just different. I hope some day I will love and the love will return back to me. No fairy tales for me though. They're too absurd and unrealistic. I want love that brings alliance, loyalty, self- sacrifice, and of course, intimacy. I do have my needs you know. To have a partner in crime, now that's romantic. As a Slytherin, I tend to get whatever I want and nothing will stop me. I want my own special kind of love. Until then... Till I get over you, Draco.

We both know that I'm not over you
I'm not over you