Ravenclaw Against Gryffindor!

Chapter five: Finding the right way back

Too long I've roamed the night. I'm coming back to her side to put it all right. I have to pay for what I've done. But better die at their hands, than at the hands of my Master!

Penelope, my darling wife. She never deserved a Death Eater as a husband. She never deserved me to cheat on her, but I did. And with that I fallen into the trap. I had fallen in love with somebody else than my wife. I had fallen in love with my mistress. I had fallen in love with the twin sister of one of my victims. I had fallen in love with Padma Patil.

I don't know how it happened. I became a Death Eater in the year after You-Know-Who's rebirth. It was the hopeless situation at work. And Sirius Black was such an easy target to blame the whole thing on.

I had killed Parvati on HIS orders. I didn't know which twin it was that I killed. It turned out to be Parvati. The wrong twin... I knew it when Padma became my mistress...

Oh Padma, how could you leave when I needed to possess you? You were the only one that was keeping me sane. Now I hear, you're married to my brother. Carrying his child... Mum and dad must be really insane with joy. Their first grandchild. I bet that they wanted Bill or Charlie or me to go first...

I'm not going to tell my Master about Padma. Padma is dead to the world, although not to me. Whatever happens I will always cherish her in my heart. That part is the part that he can not touch; the part where my true love is!

I know I have to pay the worst possible price for murdering Parvati if not for my infidelity. I have forfeited both my wife and my mistress. How could I end up this way? How did I get blown of course such a long way?

Padma. My darling Padma. I love her perhaps even more than I love my wife Penelope. That's why I tried to Obliviate her the night she found out that I was a Death Eater. People will say it's because I wanted to save my own skin, but I only wanted to spare her the hurt that she would feel when she'd realise what I've done...

I underestimated her power and overestimated my own. My vision had been clouded by my love for her and by a sinister desire for her to know the truth.

The truth is always dangerous. It has a knack of standing in your way. In my case the truth would definitely stand between Padma and me. I have killed her twin sister for Merlin's sake!

I know the Dementors are coming. They so want to kiss me. I don't want to be kissed, at least not by them... I want to let Padma know how much I love her... I'll run.

But I guess it is time to proof why I'm a Gryffindor. I've got to proof that I have the courage to face my problems like a man and not run away from them like the rats I now hang out with. Too bad that the membership of the Death Eater is like the Hotel California: you check in, but you'll never check out!