Strength

You knew how I felt. Everything you did affected me. Everything. Then, one day I caught you.

It was a sunny day, yet inside the schools halls, it had a chilly sort of draft. A feeling like something was following you. It was scaring m slightly but I ignored it.

I thought of myself as a strong girl. Not east to put down, and I was average among my classmates. Everyone had respect for me and I had respect for others. I never thought that one day you'd be the one to break my barrier. I never ever thought you'd be the one that would make me snap.

Everything was a lie. Everything you told me was a down right lie. When I saw you there with her, I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. I thought my mind was just trying to scare me. But it was real. Every detail. Every move. Every touch.

You whispered things to her that you said to me. I thought that those words were for me. Only me. I just couldn't believe it. I turned and ran down the hall, my hem of my robes following closely behind me.

I sat there in my room, the words playing over and over again in my mind. Those words that you said not only to me, but also to her. My eyes started watering. It stung so much. My eyes stung and so did my heart. Everything just hurt so badly. I just told myself, then and there, that you probably wouldn't do it again. I told myself that everything would be all right the next day.

I fell asleep, curled up on my four-poster bed, my cheeks and my pillow stained with tears. As soon as I woke up, I saw your face, hovering above mine, grinning like nothing ever happened. And I too, just smiled and acted like nothing ever happened. We just went down to breakfast together, happy. I forgot about what I saw.

Then you told me that you had to go the DADA classroom. I can' believe I never went with you. I just shrugged, smiled and told you I would be in the library.

You never came to meet me at the library. I decided to go find you. I walked though those chilly halls with my thick book I got, in my hands. I needed that book for potions. I turned to corner and there, again, I saw you. I saw you with her. Whispering those words.

This time I didn't stop and tell myself it wasn't real. I just ran. I turned and ran towards my dorm. I know you heard me. And I know that you saw me. You saw me see what you were trying to keep a secret.

I just ran, ran until I couldn't run no more. I collapsed on my bed and cried. Cried myself dry. Then the thought came to me.

You came looking for me, right after you saw me see you. Right after I saw you with her. You looked in ever room you could think of. Finally you came across my room.

There I was, lying on the floor, blood all over my thick book. The book I needed for potions.

You just looked at me in shock. I know what you were thinking. You never thought it would come to this. You never thought what I felt for you would come down to this.

I thought of myself as a strong girl. I guess I wasn't strong enough...