Behind the Veil

Sirius Black

Ministry of Magic, London

Department of Ministries

Behind the Black Veil

Dear Sirius,

I'm not sure why I'm writing this to you because I know that you can't read it but I don't know Luna Lovegood, she's a Ravenclaw in Ginny's year, gave me a good idea about where you may be. She said the voices of the voices that we could hear behind the veil were voices of our people who had died. She said that she could talk to her mother that way. So I thought maybe they could just throw this letter down to you and maybe you would be able to read it. Hedwig makes things happen like that. I don't know if that is possible or not I just needed to talk you some how. I miss you so much I feel so lonely here. I wanted to apologize because it's my fault that you died. If I had just listened to Snape and you and paid attention during my occulemency lessons you would still be here. And the mirror I should have known you would never give me anything that would hurt us.

I wasn't ready to let you go. I'm still not. I keep hoping that one day I'll get a letter from you telling me that you are really okay and are hanging out in the Virgin Islands somewhere. I know that sounds silly but it's one of the only ways that I can hope. I don't know how I'm going to manage without you. You are the only person that I can ever talk to. You always listen to me.

Nearly Headless Nick told me that you have moved on and did not choose to be a ghost. I guess it is because you wanted to be with my mom and dad. Will you tell them hi for me? I hope if you get a chance to talk to them that they are proud of me. If they are they would probably one of the few people on this earth that I have never let down. I feel like I'm just a problem for everyone. It would make me feel better as long as I know that all of you, my real family, are proud of me.

Dumbledore told me a lot of things about me that I didn't know. I don't know if you knew them or not. But basically I am going to have kill Voldemort or I will die. In other words, one of us has to kill the other. I'm considering just letting him take me because I really miss you so much and wish that I could be with all of you on the other side of the veil. However, I know in my heart that you guys would not have wanted me to die so I will keep fighting till the end.

So I'm back at the Dursley's again this summer. I think it's going to better this year. The Order of the Phoenix threatened Aunt Petunia and Uncle Vernon so I think that they will probably treat me a bit better this year than they have before. I'm not sure where the Order of the Phoenix is at the moment we may have moved out of your house, but somehow I doubt it. I think it has become a second home to all of us.

I hope you don't hate me because I caused your death. Hagrid and everyone keeps telling me that there is no way that you will ever hate me that you wanted to go and risk your life for me and that you always wanted to die as a hero. But I still don't think it's fair that you are dead and I'm still alive. If I had only listened to you I would be able to just talk to you in person instead of having to write this silly owl.

Thanks for the times Sirius, I'll never forget you for as long as I live. I'll keep writing you and tell you how I'm doing and what is going on in my life. I know that sounds stupid but if there is a chance that you can read this I want to know that I'm okay.

Your Godson,

Harry