This name I fashion for you.

My heart is broken and it's all I can do just to sit here, not crying, not tearing yours out. I want to hurt you, make you feel the pain. But all I can do is be in love with you. I'm addicted to this misery, addicted to a dream that never came true. And I'm always coming back to you. I can never be free, no peace of mind. All I get is your piece of your mind. And I want to scream at you, make you give me what I need, instead of stealing it. Make you love me.

Yes, that's what I have got to do. The only way for you to see that I am real and standing here in front of you. But if you say I'm not real, I'm not real. If you don't clap for me I'll die like those fairies, in my dream. They told me to leave you. They said I was better off without you.

I have always loved the fairies, I have loved my dreams. But they betrayed you and now they have betrayed me. I will burn them; whatever hurts you I'll destroy. You mustn't hurt. It is wrong for you to hurt. If only you would reach out and give me your pain. I'll take it for you. I'll do whatever it is that you want.

I saw the way he looked at you the other day. He doesn't like you. Yes, you know whom I mean. But he is gone now isn't he? Well, he hurt you. And I said what I would do. He deserved everything she got.

But still it's not enough. I want to be the one you hold at night, the one who you whisper sweet things into my ear that only I should ever hear.

I promise I will come back.

But you didn't, did you? No, you can't. I stopped you. And you know why? Because I was hurt, and we are one. So you were hurt. And you hurt yourself. But no one can hurt you know. I have made sure of that. I wrap my arms around you possessively. My robes are stained in blood. Your blood.

Oh God, what have I done. Out of my hurt and spite I have taken the fairies away I did not clap, because you did not clap for me.

It's too late to go back now. But I promise I will avenge you. I will have revenge on myself and whoever dared to hurt you. I did it because I love you, can't you understand that. But the less you loved me back. The more I have to love you. Sometimes that's just too much.

But don't worry, wherever you have gone. No one can hurt you now. I will come one day. But now, there is work to be done. My robes must be cleaned and repaired. A new life is to be started.

People will be broken. Every person I break, I will make them feel such despair as has never been seen before. And I will do it all for you. To make you proud of me. You will love me when I see you again because of all the things I have done for you. Oh I can't wait to see your face when you realize.

But I am rushing ahead. I am far from our meeting again. I am years ahead of myself. But these years will be for you and you will be glad. You will take me into your arms and sit with me on my throne. We will rule the world together. But not yet, I have a name to fashion and I fashion it for you.

No one can hurt you now my love, until we meet again.