Ginny's Diary--TOP SECRET!

Chapter two:

Lovebirds

Michael and I aren't getting along as well anymore. I think it's just a phase though. He's just being a TYPICAL BOY if you know what I mean. His only goal in our relationship at this point seems to be to get me in bed. Namely HIS bed. Oh well I'm sure this will pass. But REALLY does he have to be such a GUY?????

--Ginny

Well I knew it. It was just a phase and now it's all better. His apologies included PLENTY of snogging and so on and so forth. Also, I think we have agreed that SERIOUS um...things will be left until next year-our 5^th(if we're even still together then!). I'm almost glad we decided on that. Note the ALMOST. Oh well I GUESS I'm more comfortable around him now that I'm not pressured and stuff. I guess. Sigh

--Ginny

Michael's been acting REALLY polite in the past 48 hours. I think It's a good thing, because I can see now that he's not just after a good snog and a night in bed with me. Now I'm wondering if I really WANTED to not shag him. It was probably just that damned conscience again...bloody hell I hope we last until fifth year...

--Ginny

DAMN I want to shag him!!!!

--Ginny

Sorry about yesterday. I can't BELIEVE my mind can change so fast!!! It's just every time I think about him now I want more than a snog. ARGH!!! I wish being in love wasn't so complicated. Maybe tomorrow afternoon I'll go to the library and look up common wizard contraceptives. Then I won't be so afraid. I hope.

--Ginny

Well I looked it up. I think I can perform most of the charms myself. I think (hope) I can convince Mike that I've changed my mind...Maybe he'll think less of me if I approach him about it!!! ARGH! STOP WORRYING GINNY GOSH IT'S NOT THAT HARD!!! OK I've convinced myself. Off to talk to Mike!!!

--Ginny

We did it! Yay...

Wow I cannot believe we did it!!! Ron is going to KILL me!!! OK onto the details... So Mike and I were snogging up in Astronomy Tower and I guess we just got carried away by the moment because next thing I know we're in his bedroom and our robes have mysteriously disappeared!!! Weird, huh? (heeheehee) GOSH he is SOOOO perfect and SUCH a god. I THINK I'M IN HEAVEN!!!! We ended up spending the night in his bed and I sure didn't get any sleep...OH MY GOSH what if someone found this diary? They'd tell SOMEONE for sure... Oh well. I'm not ashamed! Every girl in Gryffindor has been trying to do what I did last night with Mike for the past four years! I just hope they don't tell Ron...

--Ginny

Mike is being so nice to me! He has been trying to convince me to sit with him at Ravenclaw table during meals but WHAT in the world would my brothers think? I think I'm going to be spending Saturday nights in his room though... On a different note, Harry, Ron, and Hermione are having a meeting about DADA so we will actually learn SOMETHING useful while damn Umbrige is here. She's like the devil, I SWEAR!!! I think I'll invite Mike and his friends to come along. I'll have to ask Harry if that's OK...

--Ginny

OH MY GOSH!!! Today in Hisory of Magic I found a BEAUTIFUL bouquet of red roses and a single black rose on my desk!!! There was a card, too. Here is what it said:

My dearest Ginny,

Thank you for making life easier and teaching me to be in love. I can never thank you enough. See you Saturday night...

Love, Michael

Wow, huh? I SWEAR I'm in l-o-v-e LOVE!!!! I can't wait 'til SATURDAY!!!

--Ginny

This weekend is HOGSMEADE!!! Yay. I'm, of course, going with Michael. He agreed to come to the DADA meeting, too(AFTER quite a bit of arguing). Life is interesting. When I meet Mike at Astronomy Tower tomorrow night I'm going to wear these BEAUTIFUL emerald green robes that Hermione is letting me borrow. He's going to love it-and taking it off me!

--Ginny

Well, Hogsmeade was lovely. After the meeting we went to Madame Flour's Flower shop and Mike got me a bouquet of buttercups whose nectar is butterbeer! You can drink it straight out of them. He also surprised me when we got back to Hogwarts when he showed me a small box. He explained that it only gave the person the type of chocolate they want. When he opened it, He found pieces of pure milk chocolate. When I opened it, I found soft chewy caramels. Mmmm!!! The only problem is that I don't understand why Mike thinks he has to buy gifts for me!! It's nice and all but I love him anyways. Oh, well. I appreciate it anyways!!!

--Ginny

GOSH busiest week EVER!! I've barely seen Mike because of all the homework teachers have been giving us. GRRRR!!!!! Oh and I told Hermione that Mike and I are going out. Shes really happy for me but I just CANT tell her about having sex! She wouldn't understand. And anyways, she'd probably just go off and tattle to Ron. She's too goody-goody to know about true love!!!

--Ginny

YAY!!! The weekend was WONDERFUL!!!! It was completely spent with Mike in Mike's room, various classrooms, Astronomy Tower, etc. Oh and Hermione walked in on us in the Arithmancy classroom!! Luckily we were only snogging... Boy was SHE embarrassed! But later on we talked and I told her abou having sex and she was like "I know the feeling..."! Wow, huh? I'm gonna ask her who it was tomorrow! Heeheehee...

--Ginny

SHE TOLD ME!!! Hahaha you're NEVER gonna believe this. Her first was RON, and oh it gets better. A couple weeks later she did it with HARRY then a month after Harry with VIKTOR KRUM!!! I never knew she was such a...a...SLUT! And I thought she was just innocent little Hermione...guess NOT!

--Ginny

UGH!!! Mike is being SOOOOO possesive! He's mad at me because I haven't been able to see him since the weekend!!! It is NOT my fault my teachers think that if we don't get 20 fucking hours of homework we'll die!!! UGH he is such a GUY!

--Ginny

Well we made up. Again. And then we went and spent the night in his room. This time I remembered to use one of those handy charms I researched in the library...Good thing, too. I wouldn't want to get PREGNANT!!! Gosh I'd be expelled!! Well, all's well that ends well!!!

--Ginny

We broke up. I think it was just because of stress and such and we needed to vent our anger. I still love him. I'll give it a couple hours then go make up with him.

We're together again! Happy times!!!

--Ginny

UGH!!! Earlier today I went to Astronomy tower to find Michael because his friend said he was up there. Well I sure as hell FOUND him!!! He was half naked on top of SEAMUS FINNAGAN!!!!! EWWWW!!!!!!!!!!! I can't BELIEVE that he would...would...SHAG another guy like that!!! IN BROAD DAYLIGHT!!!! Oh my gosh I do NOT want to think about it.

--Ginny

Well Mike explained. He said he was "experimenting" and it was "normal" and "haven't you tried it?" AS IF!!! He can be so stupid sometimes. Oh well. I guess I can get over him being bisexual...so long as he doesn't want a threesome! YUCK! And he CANNOT cheat on me with other guys. AND, why oh WHY does Seamus have to be gay? He's soooo hot!!!!! Oh well. I guess that's the curse of the hot guy. They all are! Either gay or bi...Ah, well. I still can't wait for every Saturday night...

--Ginny

I love Mike, but I think I want to break up with him. Yes, AGAIN. But this time for real. He is WAAAAY too possesive and he made me WAAAAY too grossed out when I saw him with Seamus. I mean, I don't know WHERE his mouth has been! I guess I'll find the courage to speak up sooner or later...

--Ginny

I can't believe what just happened. Dean, Harry, and I were studying in the common room. Harry went up to bed, and I said I had better turn in too. Dean walked with me up to my room and outside my door he grabbed my arm and FULL-ON KISSED ME!!! Tongue and EVERYTHING!!! ARRRGH! Life is just TOO complicated. And if MIKE knew! Well, I suppose he deserves it. UGH why are guys such....GUYS!?!?!?

--Ginny

Mike and I have been more like when we were first going out. Innocent, sweet, PG! Just talking and stuff and NOT SHAGGING THE HELL out of each other. I think somethings...changed. I dunno what, but I sure plan on finding out. And Dean explained himself to me. He hadn't kissed a girl and had been dared by Harry to do it. Argh and I thought Harry was nice!

--Ginny

It seems like Mike is distancing himself from me. Almost like we're becoming-DARE I say it-FRIENDS! Heeheehee oh and Friday is Valentines day! Yay! I can't wait to see what I get, if I get anything. See, Mike has ditched seeing me because he had to go TALK to his FRIENDS. Yeah, right.

--Ginny

Heehee YAY! I got TWO presents today!!! One was, of course, from Mike. He gave me water lilies. They're bewitched so they actually produce water!!! Cool, huh? Then the other gift...It was a charmed card that made a little tornado of red and silver hearts every time you opened it. It was from my "Secret Admirer", or so it said. I wonder who...DEAN?!? Nonono It could NOT be him. He doesn't like me like that...Hmm well I guess I'll find out sooner or later!

--Ginny

I think Mike is going to break up with me. I'm so SAD!!! I guess I'm gonna have to break up with him first...gosh that kills me!!! I wish we could have sex just ONE MORE TIME!!! I guess not though. This has to be done RIGHT THIS INSTANT.

--Ginny

Well, I broke up with him. I thought I would be sad but I'm really not. I'm kind of...RELEIVED. I walked up to him when he was sitting with Seamus in the library(hmmm)and told him simply that we were over. He looked crestfallen as I turned on my heel and left him sitting there with his lover. I hope I don't see him for awhile. I think I'm gonna go have a good sob now.

--Ginny

Well, guess what. Dean WAS my "Secret Admirer!" And I found out that 'Mione told Ron about Mike and I a LONG time ago. Darn it I KNEW she would go and tattle like a baby!! Oh and Dean hasn't kissed me yet even though we've been going out since Tuesday...Maybe I should introduce him to my Saturday night ritual...Maybe next Saturday. For now, I just want to be with him and get to know him better. That's probably how it should be. At least, for a little while! I'm dreading dinner though... I'm sure Dean told Ron and Harry...Oh well!

--Ginny