Moonlight

Moonlight

There was never any chance for us. Our families have hated each other for longer then I can say. And you were scared of what your father would say. All I wanted was one chance, a single opportunity to tell you how I felt. Some how I never managed to tell you, though there were so many chances for me to.

I can't watch you for my whole life Drac', watch some other woman have you. I never cared what my father thought, I swear. I was just afraid of what the future held for me. For you. For us.

I can hear you laughing downstairs in the Common Room. Probably curled up on the sofa with your new girl. It hurts so much, I can hardly breathe. I don't want to breathe, not without knowing that you're beside me. How am I expected to go on living, for my heart to keep beating, when you are my heart, and we are not together?

The moonlight is glinting off of the dagger I have beside me. When I tough it, my fingers are chilled. The sound of people talking and laughing below me makes me feel as though I am separated from the whole world. It's just me, and the dagger. Warm flesh and cold metal, both drenched in frozen moonlight. I can't help feeling a little afraid; I don't know what's on the Other Side.

But as I raise the cold steel, I know I am soon to know. I love you Drac'. Always and forever. There is no more for me. I hope you're going to be happy. I want you to be happy love. I'll always be with you, watching over you as you become a man, as you grow old. I'll be waiting for you my love. I promise.

All I ever wanted was you.

They'll never know why. One moment, she was with us, the next, she was just gone. All that is truly known is that we will never see her again. But why? Why did she leave us? Why can't she come back? I miss her. I should have listened, but fear is like a paralyzing drug; I couldn't move to stop her. I watched her in the corridors; I could hear her pain crying out, calling to me to help her. To help the one I love.

I told you once my life was yours. I didn't lie to you; it always was, and always will be. How could I have been so blind as to think we could be apart? We were soul mates. We are soul mates. There will never be any one else like you, no matter where I search, no matter how far away I go, I will never be able to replace you. There is no one else for me, my darling.

All the colours of the world seem grey and dismal without you, the most savoury or sweet food like ashes upon my tongue. Wine is bitter, and fruit tasteless. It's as though you were my life line, and now my life line has been cut. You were my morphine in a way.

The vial clicks against my teeth as I tip its vile contents into my mouth and swallow. I don't want to live without you, if this is living. I can feel, even now, the poison weaving its way into my system, lacing into my blood. Soon, my beloved, we will be together again. Away with all doubts and fears. Come to me my love. I am done with this mortal coil; I shall give you my heart.

All I ever wanted was you.