The Dark Lord's Daughter

Regrets and Realizations

“Well you will be marrying Zabini,” my father answered with no means of caring what I had to say about this matter.

“Is that all?” I asked with the neutral look on my face never wavering.

“No, you are also required to have a child within the first year of your marriage if you most wait longer you are to have a child no later then your nineteenth birthday. But I would prefer it if you had the child sooner rather then later,” he said staring at me and daring me to contradict him.

“What!?” I exclaimed looking at him in surprise.

“You heard.”

“But why?”

“Because I need the child, the child shall fulfill my job of taking over the world when I die,” he said still watching me.

“Oh.”

“You are dismissed now, and you are not allowed to discuss what we have just talked about with anyone outside of this room.”

“Okay,” I said getting up and followed Blaise and Draco outside the room.

I continued to walk away from the room and made my way over to my room. When I reached my bedroom’s door I heard Blaise calling out to me.

“What?” I said exasperated.

“Calm down,” Blaise said.

“No, I will not calm down,” I said opening my bedroom door and slamming it shut behind me.

I am not going to be a baby machine and if he thinks I am then fuck him then. I’ll leave, I don’t have to take this shit I can go back to the U.S., and find one of my friends that live over there and stay with them. But what about Blaise? I am sure that I love him but if I am going to be forced to marry him when I just leave school then I am not going to stay.

“Paige, let us in,” Draco said.

“No, so go away,” I said now sitting on my bed.

“You’re not mad about having to marry me, are you?” Blaise asked with some sadness in his voice.

“No, I’m not mad about that,” I said still sitting on the bed, I didn’t want to get up and move.

“Then what’s wrong?” Blaise asked.

“If you don’t know then I’m never going to speak to you again,” I said getting annoyed with how moronic he was acting.

“Well sorry that I have only really known you for about six months,” Blaise said.

“Paige, give him a break and open the door,” Draco said now banging on it.

I just sat there and ignored them, “You have to come out sometime, Paige you can’t just stay in there for the rest of your life,” Draco said and then I heard him walk away.

“Please let me in, Paige, don’t make me beg,” Blaise said pleading with me.

“Well if you must come in, open the door and come in, because I m not going to move from my spot so that you can come into the room,” I said now laying back against the pillows on the bed in exhaustion.

Blaise opened the door and walked over to the bed and then laid down next to me. Then he asked me yet again, “What’s wrong?”

“What’s wrong is that I don’t want to be forced into having a child so soon. I want to have one when I feel like I can take care of it and be able to give it all my attention, and not any sooner, because I don’t want to neglect my own child,” I said placing my head on his chest.

“Well I don’t care what he says, I want you to have our child when you are ready and not when he wants it,” Blaise said running his hand through my hair.

“Thanks Blaise,” I said staring up at the ceiling.

“No problem I just want you to be happy,” Blaise said still running his hands through my hair, “I love the way your hair feels.” (My hair amazingly enough was curly, but unlike most it wasn’t frizzy).

“Thanks again. Are you staying tonight?”

“Yea my parents decided to go on their sixth or so honeymoon and I was staying here during Christmas anyways,” Blaise said sitting up.

“Why’s that?”

“Because they say it’s the only time they can find someone to watch over my younger siblings, even though I think it’s just because they don’t like spending Christmas with us,

Blaise said staring intently in front of him.

“Oh, and how old are your younger siblings?” I asked I couldn’t fathom why someone wouldn’t want to spend time with their kids on Christmas.

“Well I have two younger siblings that are ten this year, and my parents wanted to make sure that if they couldn’t find someone to watch them over the break that at least my other siblings or I would be able to watch them,” Blaise said.

“You have twins in your family?” I asked looking surprised at him, “And why didn’t you tell me you had siblings?”

“You never asked about my family and before you ask my younger siblings aren’t here they are staying their friend’s estate for the time that my parents are away. I have an older brother, and before you ask he is working in the U.S. at the time and couldn’t get away,” Blaise said now looking over at me.

“How the hell did you know I was going to ask that?” I asked looking stunned at him.

“Because I know you to well by now, and anyone would have asked that question.”

“Oh. How many siblings do you have?”

“Four siblings, three of which are younger than me, and then my older brother,” Blaise said putting his arm around me.

“How old are they?”

“Well the twins who are girls are nine until the thirty-first, then my other sister is fourteen, and my older brother is twenty.”

“That’s quite a difference in age there,” I said snuggling into his chest.

“Yeah, I always wondered why they had the twins so long after Marie. I heard that my brother, Xavier, might be coming over here for Christmas and he is bringing someone with him he won’t tell me who it is though,” Blaise said pulling the covers from under us and covered us with them.

We fell asleep like that, but when I woke up I was alone in my bed. I got out of the bed and grabbed a bathrobe. I walked out of my room and over to the one that Blaise was staying in. I walked in and over to the bed. I saw that he was still sleeping so I decided that I would mess with him.

“Blaise wake up this instant, Lucius is at the door he says he can’t find you and you need to get out of here before he comes in,” I said quickly.

Blaise shot up so fast that he almost knocked me off the edge of the bed where I had been sitting. I started laughing at his reaction to what I had said, “What?!?!” Blaise asked looking at me.

“Nothing, nothing, just get up and come on,” I said pulling the covers off of him, “Why did you leave my room last night?”

“I didn’t want us to get in trouble for me being in your bed, incase Lucius, Narcissa, or your father walked into your room,” Blaise said pulling me down onto the bed.

“Well why should they care, my father arrange our marriage and anyways it’s none of their business what we do,” I said sitting up in the bed.

“Well...I…”

“If they do come in I’ll tell them that I made you stay. How’s that sound?” I asked looking over at him.

“I guess its okay, but if I get in trouble, I won’t hang out with you for like a week because you were the one that forced me to stay in your bed,” Blaise said looking uncertain.

“Come on don’t look like that. I swear I will take the blame,” I said getting off the bed.

“Alright, is that the reason you can and woke me up for?” Blaise said getting out of the bed and walked over to the dresser (he was only in a pair of black boxers).

“No I woke you up so that we could go Christmas shopping,” I said watching him.

“Do we have to go shopping, I know a few things that would be more fun then shopping,” Blaise said turning around to face me with a pair of pants in his hands.

“This coming from the guy worrying about what will happen to him if he was caught in my bed sleeping,” I said trying not to laugh and failed quite miserably at it.

“I was not…what do you find so funny?” Blaise asked turning back around so he could grab a shirt.

“Nothing, nothing, its way over your head,” I said.

“What?”

“Never mind you wouldn’t understand,” I said sitting back down on his bed and laid back against the pillows.

“Fine don’t tell me then,” Blaise said crossing his arms over his chest.

“Stop being such a drama queen about it, and just forget about it,” I said not moving from my spot on his bed.

“I am not acting like a drama queen and I want to know what was so funny,” Blaise demanded, while pulling his pants on.

“You know what?” I paused for a couple of seconds, “I give up with you.”

“And why do you,” he paused so he could pull his shirt on, “give up with me? I thought you loved me,” Blaise replied like a toddler that had been yelled at for doing something wrong.

“I do love you, you’re just so I damn difficult at times,” I said now getting off of the bed and walked over to him.

“I am not difficult,” Blaise pouted not moving from his pot.

Instead of saying anything I walked out of the room and headed to mine own. I grabbed a pair of pants, a t-shirt, and some tennis shoes. I went into my bathroom to change and get ready. Five minutes after I had left Blaise came into my room looking for me.

“Paige, are you in here?” Blaise asked after he came into my room.

“No, I’m not in there,” I said from the bathroom, “and I will be out in a minute.”

“Alright,” Blaise said.

When I came out of the bathroom a few minutes later, I saw Blaise sitting on my bed.

“Alright let’s get going now,” I said walking towards the door.

When we got downstairs, we went into the dining room, so that we could have breakfast. Narcissa and Draco were already downstairs eating breakfast when we arrived.

“So are you guys going Christmas shopping?” Narcissa asked taking a sip out of one of the dark blue glass cups.

“Yea, which place would be better to shop for Christmas gifts?” I asked after I had sat down.

“Well it depends on who you are planning on shopping for,” Narcissa answered.

“Well I am buying stuff for my friends and you guys of course. So I guess we’ll be going to both places then,” I said as I put some pancakes and bacon on my plate.

I put some butter on my pancakes and by the looks of it there was a warming spell on them so that they wouldn’t get cold. About halfway through my stake of pancakes Lucius came in and said he had some business to attend to. So he wouldn’t be here for a few days, but he would be back Christmas Eve.

Draco are you going to come with us today?” I asked as me and Blaise were getting ready to leave.

“I guess since I don’t have anything planned today,” Draco said walking with us to the fireplace in one of the studies.

Draco went first, he grabbed some Floo powder, and then said Leaky Cauldron quite clearly. I went next and did the same thing.

“Draco, why did you look somewhat sad when you came back to the compartment? When we were on our way home for break,” I asked when I walked out of the fireplace.

“Well I…,” Draco didn’t finish due to the arrival of Blaise.

After a few minutes of awkward silence Blaise spoke up and said, “Shouldn’t we be going now?”

“Yeah,” I said looking over at Draco and then walked away, I turned around and saw that they weren’t following me, “Are you guys coming or what?”

“Yeah, we’re coming,” Blaise said and then they followed me out of the Leaky Cauldron and to the alley in the back of the building.

Blaise tapped the wall with his wand and then the wall made an entry way form the alley to Diagon Alley. We walked in and noticed a crowd hurrying along in their coats and scarves.

“Do you guys want to split up or stay together?” I asked looking at Blaise and Draco.

“How ‘bout we stay together, because of the crowd,” Blaise said not moving from next to me.

“I’ll meet up with you two at the ice cream shop in about two hours,” Draco said walking away.

“Alright,” I said to him, then I turned to Blaise,” Do you think he’s getting Granger a Christmas present and doesn’t want us to know about it?”

“Could be, but with him who knows,” Blaise said putting his arm around my shoulder and started to walk with me.

We stopped at a clothes store, so that I could get Narcissa something. I ended up getting her lavender dress robes and Blaise bought his mother pale green dress robes and Narcissa dark green dress robes.

“What do you think Lucius will want for Christmas?” I asked Blaise as we left the store.

“He really doesn’t like getting things for Christmas,” Blaise said.

“Well I’m still going to get him something, but what?” I asked as we started walking down the street trying to stay together.

“Just pick him up a silver ring with an emerald in it, if you feel like you must get him something,” Blaise said walking towards the ice cream shop, since our two hours were about up.

We ordered our ice cream and then found a table that would allow all of us to sit down comfortably. Blaise had ordered a Banana Split, and I got a waffle cone with two scoops of mint chocolate chip ice cream. After a couple of minutes of sitting there and enjoying our ice cream, with some idle chit-chat here and there, Draco came over with a Butterbeer Float and then sat across the table from Blaise and me. He sat there drinking the float so he wouldn’t have to talk. I noticed he had a couple of bags next to his seat.

“So what did you get Draco?” I asked looking at him so he wouldn’t try to back out of answering me.

“I bought some presents,” Draco said not looking at me but behind me.

“Who are they for?” I asked still looking at him.

“They’re for…”Draco started to say and then he quickly paled to the same color he had the day we had come back from visiting his father and his mother had mentioned Mrs. Parkinson.

I turned around and saw Hermione Granger and Viktor Krum. They were sitting there laughing and acting like a couple. When I went to look back at Draco, I found him no longer sitting there and his bags had disappeared along with him. I turned back to look at Granger, to see if Draco had walked over there, but he hadn’t.

“Blaise did you see where Draco went to?” I asked now looking at Blaise.

“No, I along with you were looking at Granger, and I think that’s when Draco thought would be his ideal moment to leave. Are we going to continue shopping today or are we going back to the manor?” Blaise asked finishing up his Banana Split.

“I guess we could continue shopping why should Draco ruin our day. So let’s go, so we can go to Hogsmeade and finish our shopping,” I said putting the last bit of my ice cream cone in my mouth and eating it.

We grabbed what little shopping bags we had and walked out. We went back to the Leaky Cauldron so that we could Floo over to Hogsmeade. When we arrived at the Three Broomsticks we were greeted by the site of Pansy Parkinson all over Draco.

“What the hell are you doing to my cousin, Parkinson?” I asked her as I pulled her off of Draco.

“Go away Paige and leave us alone I was having fun,” Draco said pulling on Pansy’s arm.

“Draco come with us a minute we have to talk to you,” I said now pulling Draco out of the seat he was sitting in.

All three of us walked to a secluded corner of the room (I had to drag Draco over there, because he didn’t want to come).

“Draco why were you just snogging Parkinson back there?” I asked as Blaise was holding him up (it seemed as if he had been drinking a lot of alcohol since we had last saw him).

“Because I can and why do you give a fuck?” Draco asked attempting to glare at me but giving his state it wasn’t that much of an intimidating glare.

“Perhaps because you hate her, now tell me why you were snogging her?” I asked still trying to get him to tell me the real reason behind it.

“I am not going to tell you so stop trying to get me to tell you,” he said attempting to get away from Blaise but only accomplishing of almost making him self fall down.

“Does this stunt you just pulled have anything to do with Hermione Granger and that guy she was sitting with, does it?” I asked now staring intently at him, he stopped struggling and looked at me. “Well I guess that answers my question.”

“Blaise, let me go,” Draco said through gritted teeth.

“Don’t let him go yet, Blaise. I have one more question to ask him. Are you going out with Granger?” I asked him and then saw a glint in his eyes that looked plain evil.

“I am not going out with Granger. Now let me go, Blaise, she asked her question,” Draco said starting to be released by Blaise.

“Hold on a minute, explain this to me. Why were you making out with her in the library about two weeks after Mike had grabbed me in the corridor on my to the library,” I said crossing my arms over my chest because there was no way not to answer that question.

“What do you mean?” Draco asked trying not to answer me question.

“You know perfectly well what I meant and I know you had Granger at the manor this summer, and don’t tell me that I’m lying either,” I said still watching him.

“Why would I bring a Muggleborn into the manor?” Draco asked.

“I was right,” I said triumphantly.

“What?!”

“You can’t even say mudblood anymore, so therefore I’m correct and you’re lying to us,” I said with a smirk that was gradually appearing on my face.

“Right, about what?” Draco asked confused.

“That you were going out with Granger,” I said.

“Wh…Ho…Why do you think that?” Draco asked.

“I think you just proved her point with that statement,” Blaise said now letting go of Draco.

“I am not dating a mudblood and I haven’t ever,” Draco said getting angry, when he had finished with his little fit (while maybe not little) he stormed away.

“Well that didn’t go as planned,” I said.

“Let’s go back to the manor now,” Blaise said walking towards the fireplace.

“But we haven’t finished shopping yet,” I said pleading almost.

“Alright let’s go,” Blaise said walking to the door.

When we got outside we were met with a flurry of snowflakes. My cheeks almost instantly turned red from the cold that assaulted them. I moved closer to Blaise so I could stay warm. He placed his arm over my shoulder and started to walk with me.

“Thanks,” I said leaning against him.

We walked over to Honeydukes. When we got there Blaise walked away to talk to the cashier. I walked among the rows of sweets and looked for something for Ashley. I picked up a bag of Bertie Botts, and a couple of chocolate frogs. I walked over to the cash register and when Blaise saw me he stopped talking. After I had paid for the sweets we left and continued on our way.

We went over to the Quality Quidditch store. I picked up a broom cleaning kit and Blaise didn’t pick anything up. We walked over to the bookstore next door. I went over to the new Quidditch books and bought another new Quidditch books for Blaise. Then I walked over to where the books on dragons could be found.

I looked through them and found one on baby dragons, so I decided that I would buy it for myself. So that it could help me with the present that Draco had got me for my birthday (it had arrived after we had left for school). When I walked up to the cashier I saw Blaise standing over there waiting for me.

We went to go buy some owl treats at the Owl Emporium . Blaise quickly found what he was looking for, but it took me longer. After a couple of minutes of looking I had found three different types of treats I thought my owls would like in their respective bags. When I went to go pay for them Blaise was having a whispered conversation with the man behind the counter.

“What are you doing Blaise?” I asked when I had reached the counter.

“Nothing, you ready to go?” Blaise said looking suspiciously guilty about something.

“Almost I just have to pay for these and then we can go,” I said pointing to the treats.

“Alright, but do hurry cause dinner is in about an hour and we have to change and get ready,” Blaise said standing next to me.

After we were done, we walked over to the Three Broomsticks. When we walked in I didn’t see Draco or Parkinson anywhere.

“Where do you think Draco went to?” I asked him as we reached the fireplace.

“Who knows, I really don’t want to think about it cause he might be with Parkinson,” Blaise said grabbing some Floo powder.

He went first and then I followed him. When I came out of the fireplace I saw Blaise standing over by the door not moving, so I walked over to him.

“Why are you just standing here?” I asked softly.

“Um…I heard a noise and...er…thought someone could be…intruding in the house so I was going to wait for you to make sure you were alright,” Blaise said whispering, “Let’s go to my house and wait there at least there we will be safe, incase…” but here he trailed off.

“Okay,” I said as we walked towards the fireplace.

Blaise walked into the fireplace with some Floo powder in his hand and threw it down and said, “Zabini Manor, Rose room,” the green flames engulfed him and then he disappeared. I did the same and then appeared in a room that resembled it name quite well, not that there were roses every where but it did have a wall color of pale rose and there were some roses sitting in a vase on a table that was by to chairs that had rose print on them and a couch that had the same print on it.

This is one of the sitting rooms. Come on so we to get something to eat,” Blaise said grabbing my hand and pulling out of the room and down the stairs.

On the way to the dining room I saw portraits of Blaise’s ancestors lining the walls. We walked along in silence until we reached the dining room. Blaise pulled a chair out for me to sit in and then he took the seat next to me.

“Why are we here waiting and what are we waiting for?” I asked looking at him.

“We’re here, because where else are we going to go when someone could possibly in danger you in the Malfoy manor? Lucius and Narcissa should be coming sometime maybe in a while or they might not come at all who knows. Draco might come to if he hasn’t already arrived here are locked himself in his own room at the manor,” Blaise replied.

Some house-elves walked in with some food. We ate dinner and then walked to the study to wait for them. A few hours later and they still hadn’t arrived and I had started to doze off for a few minutes. Blaise woke me up and then showed my to what room I would be staying in. When he went to leave I grabbed his arm.

“Please stay,” I said pulling him back towards the bed.

“Okay,” he said getting into the bed.

I cuddled up to him and fell asleep. The next morning I woke up and Blaise wasn’t in the bed next to me. I got out of the bed and walked towards the door. I was about to open the door when it opened and Blaise walked in.

“Hey, sleep good last night?” Blaise asked walking into the room with a tray that carried two plates that were covered and two glasses of pumpkin juice in his hands. “I thought you would like breakfast in bed.”

“Thanks and yes I did sleep good last night. What about you?” I asked walking towards the bed.

“Very good,” he said walking towards the bed.

When he reached it he handed me the tray and then got into bed next to me and he took the tray back and placed it between us. He uncovered one of the plates to reveal a stack of pancakes, with some butter on top. The other one held the same thing on it.

“Thanks Blaise,” I said picking up a fork and knife, so I could cut the pancakes into manageable pieces.

“How are they?” Blaise asked after I had taken a bite.

“Good.”

“That’s good,” Blaise said eating some himself.

When we had finished eating I went and got ready. We went downstairs and we flooed back to Malfoy Manor. I walked out of the study and went to see if Draco, Lucius, or Narcissa was up yet. I walked into the dining room and saw Draco and Lucius sitting at the table but Narcissa was no where to be seen. Draco didn’t look to happy and I was smart enough not to ask where she was. After they were done eating I went with Draco up the stairs.

“Where were you last night?” Draco asked after we had reached the top of the stairs.

“Why don’t you ask Blaise? I wanted to know where your mother is,” I said.

“She is no longer here,” Draco said and then walked away but not before I saw something that looked very close to pain in his eyes.

What the hell? What happened yesterday when we weren’t here? Does Blaise know about this? And if he does why didn’t he tell me? I walked to the room that Blaise was staying in, to see if he was in there. He wasn’t so I went to my room. I had been in there for a couple of hours just thinking when the door opened and Blaise stepped in.

“What happened yesterday?” I asked him as soon as I had noticed he was in the room.

“I can’t tell you,” he simply said walking towards me.

“Tell me what the fuck happened,” I asked him, my voice slowly gaining in volume.

“Paige, I can’t tell you. Your father doesn’t want you to know,” Blaise said and stopped walking when he was five feet away from me.

“I am not supposed to know a lot of things, am I?” I asked now yelling, “I should just leave and never come back. You do know I had a choice of whether or not if I wanted to come here. I should have stayed there, at least there I had more friends of there and nobody hated my just because of what house I was put into, but no I had to come here so that I could see Ashley on daily schedule. Dumbest mistake I ever made.”

“Paige, don’t say that. I would be devastated if you left. I wish I could tell you but I can’t. So please don’t be mad at me,” Blaise said walking back towards me.

“Go away,” I said calmly down slowly.

“No, Paige, I am not going to leave you,” he said now a foot away from me and then he stopped.

“Just go away and leave me the fuck alone.”

Blaise closed the least foot between us and grabbed a hold of me.

“I am not leaving until you stop thinking about leaving. I don’t know what I would do if you left,” he said.

“Well you’re going to have figure it out, because I refuse to stay here any longer. I don’t like to have people running my life for me. I now understand why my real mother had given me away so that I could be raised away from this and so I could decided for myself in which side I fought on when the time came. And I’m glad she did,” I said trying to get free. Blaise remained quiet so I continued,” And so I was raised to know right from wrong and that what my father is doing is so wrong it is indescribable. You don’t just kill people because of who they are. He wants to get rid of muggleborns, so that purebloods reign supreme over the wizarding world, and yet he himself isn’t even a pureblood, but a mere half-blood. I have more pureblood in me than he does. He’s just like that one muggle who wanted to rid the world of the Jews and the others that didn’t fit his image of the supreme race or went up against him. And yet he didn’t even fit his own image. So I am not going to stay here and help him kill almost all of the population of the world,” I said now out of his grasp and out of breath.

“I could always go with you, because I would rather die than live without you in my life,” Blaise said.

“That’s sweet and all but if you go with me the chance of me being found increases. It will be hard enough for just me to hide from them,” I said walking towards the closet.

“Couldn’t you wait until after seventh year is over to leave?” Blaise asked following me.

“No, by that time he could have already brainwashed me into wanting to stay,” I said digging through for clothes I had originally brought with me.

“Well at least wait until the end of the school year, no sense in you changing school halfway through year, and that way we can spend as much time together as we can before you leave,” Blaise said wrapping his arms around my waist.