All I Wanna Hear

Have you ever fallen? I mean fallen hard? I have. I fell, and hard, for Draco Malfoy.

It might have been the way he looked at me. Like I was some kind of freak. It might of bee the way his eyes pierced everything he saw. It even might have been the fact that he seemed to have sold his soul to the devil. Whatever it was, it caught my interest. I mean really caught my interest.

I did everything to get him to fall for me. But he wouldn't. I even told him I loved him. Did he even care? No. He didn't give a damn. He said, "You don't really mean it." That's a lie. Sure, were good friends, but that's all we'll ever be. But I want something more, and he can't give it to me.

I've begged and pleaded with him, but all he gave me was a smile, and a broken line. "It just takes time Gin." As if. He won't say those three little words, and that's all I wanna hear. Each day I look at his smiling face. He looks so happy, as if nothings been erased. But something has. Cause, he doesn't love me, and I'm dying each time I see him.

I told him to avoid me unless he said those three little words. He tried to beg me to understand. He acted like a broken man. He asked me why. I told him I want to die in peace. Not same crazy world. And either way I'm dying to hear you say those three little words.

I've seen him around lately. He looks terrible. Like he lost everything he had. But I can't go back to that sadness I felt. Cause I know he'll never say those three little words that I'm dying to hear. But when I'm dead, he'll forget about me. All those pictures, won't even be memories. I'll be looking down at him, crying because he never said those three little words.

I watch him day after day. He's already forgetting about me. He's forgetting that we were ever friends. I'm not even a memory. He's smiling and laughing again. I think he's found a new friend. Sometimes he'll look at me, and I'll see sadness in his eyes. That's probably the only time he even remembers I'm alive. I can't forgot the pain he caused me. I'm still dying inside. I'm almost gone. I've given up on hanging on. He'll miss me when I'm gone. Maybe he won't notice a difference. I love him, and he won't ever say those three little words that I long to hear.

There's not a chance for us anymore. He's found a girl whom he adores. I'm dying even faster than before. He never even looks at me. If he does, he looks at me like he doesn't even know who I am. In a way he doesn't. He's forgotten about me completely. That's the way I want it, cause he can't say those three little words. At least not to me. He says them to her so much. They'll probably get married. He'll forget to invite me to the wedding.

So I'm dying inside and I've fallen. I think I've hit the bottom. I'm in too deep to get out. And he's not here to save me now.