My Sweet Prince

Never thought you'd make me perspire
Never thought I'd do you the same

You kiss me and you're sucking me in and I'm drowning in your warmth, in your smell of fresh rain and strawberries. I feel you run your hand up my spine and I sink into you. I cling to you as if you were my last chance for salvation. And you are.

Never thought I'd fill with desire
Never thought I'd feel so ashamed

We shouldn't be here. This isn't right. I should leave you, but I can't stop. It's an addiction. Your hands tangle in my hair as I kiss down your bare chest and dip my hand inside your trousers.

You groan my name and it makes me shiver to hear it on your lips.

"Draco."

Me and the dragon can chase all the pain away
So before I end my day
Remember

I'm bad for you. I am what you hate. All that I am and all that I will be is everything that you have been raised to detest. We both know that someday soon I will have to go to join my father on the side of your worst enemy and, on that day, I too will become your enemy, and you will have to kill me.

My sweet prince, you are the one
My sweet prince, you are the one

And I know that it will break your heart, because, despite your better judgment, you have fallen in love with me. I can see it in your eyes when I glance at you across the Great Hall, and I feel it in your caress as we tumble onto the bed and when you softly kiss my forehead. I feel it in every fiber of my being.

It scares me. No one has ever needed me the way that you need me. You don't realize it, but you cling to me in your sleep, crying out from the nightmares that plague you. And I hold you, running my hand through your hair, praying to a God that I don't believe in that I knew a way to stop your pain.

Me and you baby
Still flush all the pain away
So before I end my day
Remember

What scares me most is that I feel it too. I didn't want to love you. This wasn't supposed to happen. But from the moment we first kissed it was as if all the troubles in our lives just melted away, and there was no one in the world but you and me.

I love how you make me feel, but I hate it at the same time. I hate that you've brought down my barriers. I hate that the thought of the day that I will leave Hogwarts fills me with dread, because I know that I will never see you this way again.

You mumble and roll over in your sleep, a peaceful smile on your face in the aftermath of our lovemaking. The nightmares will start later, but for now you are content. I place a light kiss on your cheek and delicately brush your messy black hair out of your face. I slip out of bed and walk over to the window.

As I sit on the windowsill, looking out from Gryffindor Tower, I feel more sated, and more content than I ever have. I know it won't last forever, but I don't care. Looking at the stars, I realize this is as close to heaven as I'm ever going to get. I'm in my own, personal heaven, and it's all because of you.

My sweet prince
You are the one
My sweet prince

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