Never Again

Cedric.

He's gone. I'm never going to see him again.

I'm still in shock.

He was my first love, and my last. I swear that I'll never fall in love with anybody else. Nobody could ever...or will ever take his place in my life.

Never.

Cedric wasn't like other boys. He didn't care that I was pretty, that I was a star Seeker for Ravenclaw. He loved me for me, not for my looks or athletic ability.

I felt the same way about him.

Cedric was a year older than I; we met at the first game I played against Hufflepuff in my second year.

He was so handsome...a mere glance from him made my knees buckle.

From the very first time we met, I was smitten, and so was he.

After years of friendship, Cedric and I finally started dating.

We were so innocent. His kisses were so sweet...I couldn't imagine anything better...or anyone better, for that matter.

This year, when Cedric put his name in the Goblet of Fire, and was chosen as Hogwarts Champion, I was so proud. So proud that my love was the one who'd win the Triwizard Tournament for Hogwarts.

I was so oblivious to the danger.

So oblivious to the fact that Harry Potter and Cedric were helping each other out to the Portkey in the Triwizard Cup.

I shudder every time I think of He-Who Must-Not-Be-Named killing Cedric--my Cedric. I don't know exactly what happened, but Harry Potter won't tell anyone but Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger, and the Professors about that fateful night.

I feel hatred towards Harry. I have no idea why. Maybe it is because Harry was the one You-Know-Who was after the whole time, that he had to show dignity and let Cedric touch the Portkey. That You-Know-Who was waiting for Harry the whole time, but he killed Cedric instead.

Oh, I know Harry didn't know, but--

It hurts just the same.

Cedric will never be a father; will never get married. Nobody will ever know his true potential as a wizard.

His parent's lives have been ruined: Cedric was their only child; the whole world to them.

He was the whole world to me, too.

Oh, you may say that I'm too young to fall in love.

I may just be.

However, I just know that Cedric was the one--the man I'd marry and have children with. The man that I would share my life with.

Now that will never happen.

I don't want to fall in love again.

I don't want to feel the pain--the anguish of losing somebody dear to me--one more time.

That may sound drastic to you, but to me, it is the only way of cherishing Cedric. The only way of preserving his love.

I look at the tree ahead of me. I run my fingers over the rough, cool tree bark, feeling the grooves carved into the side. A heart, awkwardly carved into the wood, with words chiseled inside.

Cho Chang and Cedric Diggory. Together Forever.