All You Wanted

All you wanted

The last few weeks were indeed some of the happiest in my life. Something had change about Hermione and she somehow seemed to... need me, in a way she hadn't before.

We really spent a lot of time together after that day, when I had picked her up from the library and we had gone to Hogsmeade, like we did so many times currently.

We would go to Hogsmeade just to look at the shop windows or share a cup of strawberry vanilla ice-cream at Florean's Ice-Cream Parlour.

Or she would watch Harry and me practicing Quidditch secretly for there was no team this year and Harry feared to loose his skills.

At other times we would simply stay in the common room together with Harry and do our homework. She would occasionally help us, when we needed her to and she would explain everything with an almost shy smile.

If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

Yet there was definitely something different about her behaviour.

We would go to Hogsmeade, yet we never went into Flourish & Blotts. She would start to talk very animatedly every time we came near that bookstore and wouldn't stop until we passed it.

She would watch us practicing Quidditch, yawning occasionally for I know it bored her, yet never burying her nose in a book but pretending to pay attention bravely.

And she would help us in classes and with our homework, yet never tell us to read it up somewhere. She hadn't mentioned Hogwarts: A History even once in over three weeks now.

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted was somebody who cares

Some days ago she went to bed early and so I could visit her in the girls dormitory without anybody bothering us. When I opened the door I was sure to find her reading, yet instead I heard music and when I entered I saw a Muggle record floating and rotating in midair. Hermione had enchanted it to play music and now her wand was flying above it, barely touching it with its tip, so the music would flow. She was laying on her bed in her nightgown happily staring at the ceiling, listening to the music. And then she smiled at me...

Please can you tell me

So I can finally see,

Where you go, when you're gone

I had not known what I had missed all the time before, until I finally got it: Time to spend with her! And to top it all she actually gave me the feeling that she really needed me and to some extend even more than I needed her. She wanted me to care for her.

And I tried to make her feel save, for she somehow seemed to really need that right now. And all the while I kept on pretending that I wouldn't notice her sudden change. Yet I had noticed...

All you wanted was somebody who cares

It was amazing, yet alarming at the same time.

Amazing for all the things we did together.

And... and alarming for she suddenly seemed so... so vulnerable, which was so unlike her usual self. She needed constant reassurance. She needed me to tell her that I love her. Which, of course, I do.

I love her more than anything else in the world.

And it was pleasurable to show her in many different ways.

Yesterday she stayed overnight hidden behind my curtains. She had invented a spell to enchant the curtains so that no one outside could hear what was going on inside and then she stayed until a Wakening charm told her to go back just before the first person would awake. We talked late into the night and when she finally fell asleep in my arms she was smiling.

If you need me you know I'll be there

And then I sang to her to spend her sweet dreams, since she filled my heart with song. And I thought about the time before her Change.

"I wanted to be with you.

I wanted everything!"

I had wanted to spend more time with her before actually and so I had tried different ways.

At the end I had even tried to join her in the library as foolish as it may sound. I had pretended to learn, while I, of course, had not had a single eye for the books but only eyes for her.

"So I tried to be like you

And I got swept away."

This habit, however, didn't last long. I had to admit that I really was enjoying the improvement of my grades for a change, yet I felt uncomfortable with all the learning and the library seemed always cold.

"I didn't know that it was so cold and..."

Nevertheless, I noticed something about her, while I spent that time pretending to read. I noticed that sometimes Mione wasn't comfortable with that either!

First I wondered why she didn't leave then. I wondered really a long time, if truth be told. And then I noticed that she simply couldn't for some reason I didn't understand.

"...you needed some one to show you the way."

So I thought about helping her to leave. Yet I still was insecure about it.

Though one day I decided that this day was as good as any other.

"So I took your hand and

we figured out that

when the tide comes

I take you away."

This was the beginning of her Change and the beginning of the wonderful time we spent together. From that day on I took care of her.

"If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted was somebody who cares"

This is the second night she fell asleep in my arms. If she keeps on doing so, we will probably be caught one day or the other, but I don't care.

"All you wanted was somebody who cares

If you need me you know I'll be there"

All I care for is her.

Today she opened the first book in over three weeks. She had to find out something for Potions. She searched for the specific Potion, read the paragraph and closed the book again. Then she came over to me and asked me out for a walk around the lake.

"If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted was somebody who cares"

"Sleep well my only Angel...

know I'll be there"